? Sunday, January 11
hey. quite a few things happened recently.
i found out things.experience life.
what happen between us was somewhat magical to me.
it's one of the best moments in life
it's sad to see it end but it's been hard enough.
i can say that i was selfish.
i was scared to let you go,
eventhough i know i had you in a dilemma.
i even tried to make it worst,by prolonging the situation.
i even wanted you to even giveup the person you love.
i'm a fucking asshole.
i'm sorry.
well i just hope that you feel better now.
i admit i hate to see you messed up,
so you just pretend that nothing happened.
so let's see that smile,
as for us being friends,
not gonna be easy, but yah it's not that hard either.
should i text you?maybe not.
i shall not make things any harder.
so if you feel like talking just text/call me.
i will always be there,waiting.
so i hope you go to the doc soon.
im sorry that i cant help.
but yah drink more water, chlorophyll water.
just don't turn green.hahaha
sometimes when you feel miserable,
you feel like doing something stupid.
you wished you got bang by a truck and lose your memory.
the weird thing is i'm not miserable.i think.
anw illiyana i'm hoping you will do what you said.
cos i still see a ray of hope.
and another thing about your promise.
i never made you to. it's for your own good.
i can't see if you actually keep your words.
but it be nice to know that like you said for me you'll quit.
it made me feel that i still mean to you.
thanks for everything
you made me a better person.
and if anything happens,
i'd still be here waiting with open arms.
maybe this time with an open heart too.
....10:48 am
