? Wednesday, February 4
now i know what's gg on.
it's opera i think it doesn't support blogger or it's still in beta.idk
and now i get what's gg on.
funny cos saw it coming anyway.
i sensed something was wrong, and guess what?i was right on.
i could have just walk away like what the old me would usually do.
but i was hoping, which was all i could do,that a miracle could happen.
to undo the mistakes i did in the past.
i'm not mad at you cos you love him. what kind of man do you take me for?haha
no one is to blame for what happened.
me,you,him. but maybe god uh.hahahaha
for a hardcore pessimist. i can say that i'm optimistic.
well it's sad to see such a beautiful thing in my life gone.
a beautiful girl somemore.hahaha
maybe it's karma. things happen for a reason right.hah
well thanks for telling me at least maybe i can get a closure.idk
yah i had enough of it lingering. cos it was really affecting me.
and not that it's better now. but fuck me.
i just hope you'll be comfortable with your life.
and there's only 1 reason that we cld never be cos you love him.
the others are just a whole load of crap to me.
i don't think you would listen to me anymore.
but take care of yourself.
i won't be there to tell(nag) you to eat your meds.
i won't be there to tell you to do the right thing.
i hope you know what i mean.not just the fags or booze.
i mean i won't be there in personlah.
but i'll be there hoping that somehow something will remind you of it.
don't go doing stupid stuff to run away from life.
i know your a strong person unlike me.
i'm just a loser who always try to run away from the fact that my life sucks.
you always say suck to be you.
but hell don't you know what i've been through.
i guess i'm just that guy who keeps stuff to himself.
and it's better that way.
idk what to do now. so sorry.
feelings aside, i hope we can be the bestest of friends.
cos i really treasure everything we had and will have.
i will stop drinking before i go ns. if i don't i hope i just die. ok
i try to keep things bottled up okay. =)
i love you.
sorry!=(
....2:33 am
